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kushandwizdom:

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"Lots of things can be fixed. Things can be fixed. But many times, relationships between people cannot be fixed, because they should not be fixed. You’re aboard a ship setting sail, and the other person has joined the inland circus, or is boarding a different ship, and you just can’t be with each other anymore. Because you shouldn’t be."

- C. JoyBell C. (via observando)

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It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the sound I heard when I was 9 and my father slammed the front door so hard behind him I swear to god it shook the whole house. For the next 3 years I watched my mother break her teeth on vodka bottles. I think she stopped breathing when he left. I think part of her died. I think he took her heart with him when he walked out. Her chest is empty, just a shattered mess or cracked ribs and depression pills.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s all the blood in the sink. It’s the night that I spent 12 hours in the emergency room waiting to see if my sister was going to be okay, after the boy she loved, told her he didn’t love her anymore. It’s the crying, and the fluorescent lights, and white sneakers and pale faces and shaky breaths and blood. So much blood.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the time that I had to stay up for two days straight with my best friend while she cried and shrieked and threw up on my bedroom floor because her boyfriend fucked his ex. I swear to god she still has tear streaks stained onto her cheeks. I think when you love someone, it never really goes away.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the six weeks we had a substitute in English because our teacher was getting divorced and couldn’t handle getting out of bed. When she came back was smiling. But her hands shook so hard when she held her coffee, you could see that something was broken inside. And sometimes when things break, you can’t fix them. Nothing ever goes back to how it was. I got an A in English that year. I think her head was always spinning too hard to read any essays.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s that I do.

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- It’s not that I don’t love you.  (via extrasad)

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ligte:

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"Some old wounds never truly heal, and bleed again at the slightest word."

- George R.R. Martin (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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kushandwizdom:

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"Tis’ better to live your own life imperfectly than to imitate someone else’s perfectly."

- Elizabeth Gilbert (via observando)

kushandwizdom:

The Good Vibe

"I don’t want just words. If that’s all you have for me, you’d better go."

- F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned (via larmoyante)

(via eletheowl)

"I take much pleasure in being alone, but there is also a strange warm grace in not being alone."

- Charles Bukowski (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

(Source: fables-of-the-reconstruction, via eletheowl)

"You will fall in love with someone who’s cold and always seemingly pushing you away. When all is said and done, they will be forever known as the one person you couldn’t get to love you. Unfortunately, it will hurt and sting worse than the good ones, the ones that chopped up your meat for you and picked out an eyelash from your eye and were nice to your mother, because love often feels like a game we need to win. And when we lose, when we realize we couldn’t get what we ultimately desired from a person, it makes us feel like a failure and erases all the memories of those who loved us in the past."

- The People You Will Fall in Love With in Your 20s (Ryan O’Connell)

Wow. Me.

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(Source: thoughtcatalog.com, via eletheowl)